in the wake of the devastation caused by typhoon haiyan, i'm low.
my heart is overwhelmed.
i can't explain the physical sickness i feel from my heart all over my body. the way grief for my beloved adopted homeland makes me dizzy, breathless, awash in tears and anger.
i pray. i weep. i act. i work, hard- at coordinating in my own small way a bit of a relief effort for children who've lost everything.
i Facebook. i email. i tweet.
but at the bottom of it, the sense of hopelessness weighs me down. this is just so big.
winds of more than 200 km per hour?
a wave 5 meters high?
how is a human being equipped to stand up against the wrath of nature?
we are so little.
so very very small.
only the spark of human spirit is left, and i think it will be awhile before we bounce back from this one.
only prayer is left. to lay silent and weeping before SOMEONE who is bigger than nature.
and trust that HE knows, hears, understands, and weeps too.